Frozen yogurt tops off my calorie intake! Today was a good food day!

Big meal 600 cals

Thanks to the high cal tarter tots I'm eating this veggie burger topped with pineapple and bbq sauce is no longer a healthy meal.  I still have 200 cals left for a snack before midnight so unless I cave in and eat extra food, today will be a successful eating day!

Mmm mmm

Because I'm counting from midnight to midnight this will be my few hrs before bedtime food! About 250 calories. Orange, apple and some carbo nut squares for protein.

Tomatoes, bagel w/cream cheese

Snack time

Official start now that its Tuesday! About 90 calories here

pictures

So i figured out how to post the food pics, yep I'm pretty fast! OK so the pic i just posted is of my thanksgiving feast... a lot of food LOL. I'm pretty scared to post the foods but if I'm honest with myself I feel like this picture thing will help me stay on track and become the Jennifer I feel inside... the Jennifer who has been trying to tear out of this body I currently have!

get on track again

So a year has gone by and im once again in the same spot... I want it, I need it... i must do it. My will power sucks everything else is in line for me to succeed. I know how to eat, I know how to count calories, i know what a serving size looks like... free gym membership, support network... im the only thing holding me back.. So here I begin!!! Im going to try to figure out how to post pics from my phone directly and then post a pic of everything I eat.. good bad and ugly! accountability usually keeps me on track!

lost

I had 2 bad food days last week. I went to the OA meeting and commited to reporting weekly how many days I didn't overeat. They said they will bring me key tags or chips(plastic tokens) to celebrate the days.. Thankful for the women at the meeting!!! I feel good and hopeful that things are getting better for my body, mind and spirit!!

on again

I fell off the no sweets wagon through the holidays.. I only ment to have icecream at my family Christmas party and it rocketed from there. I ment to stop after dessert after Christmas dinner.... but that didn't happen. I joined a new group and today Monday January 4th is day 1 with no sweets.

Yes yes yes

It has been 14 days, yes 2 weeks since my last sweet eat!! it has been hard but easy at the same time. Change had to happen in this area of my life. enough pain came from my food obsession that it was becoming to much to bare.. I will keep on this. adding the gym back into my life now is my next step 4 times a week for 45min.

I think I can I think I can

4 days and counting... no sweet binges. I have to make changes and I have to make changes now my life depends on it. It has been hard but I have managed to take a baby step in the right direction for 4 days.. 4 days may not seem like much to some but for me its huge!! Right now I am focusing on not binging on food/ sweets being my main focus since that's where my biggest challenge lies. I feel good, headaches are not coming and my confidence is building.

confessions of a food addict

Today will be a positive day!!! I consumed 2 mini butterfingers 2 mini boxes of jr mints and 2 dark chocolate kisses... the good news is there was a whole pile of mini jr mint boxes and butterfingers... a 1/2 bag of kisses... i walked away before it all got way out of control...

OA

I have attended 3 OA (over eaters annonomous) meetings. I can't stop the food issues. I need no excuse to binge and over consume what ever food (usually sweet stuff) is around. once I start I cant stop, well untill I feel very sick. Food addiction is so hard. its not like you can just avoid food... I have to eat. I want to be able to stop... have just 1... not feel ashamed about my binges. I dont perge.. I just binge.. keep all that food in me.. I end up feeling sick most of the time... I want it to end... God please remove my obsession with food.

once again.. I am a food addict. out of control.. forever

Its been a while since I have posted here.. I have a serious food addiction. i hate this cycle of over eating, telling myself I wont do it again, finding my self doing it again...feeling so ashamed, wondering why I cant stop, I know what I need to do to change my weight ... I just cant get there. i feel alone and very lost. I got in a bath tub today.. usually shower. When I looked down at the squishy, ewww, that should be my belly area I wanted to cry. I there, in the tub told myself today would be different.. I would try, and when i wanted to gorge myself i would remember how much I hate that squishy large belly area..... I did it anyway, i came to work and got 3 large hand fulls of assorted candy and rapidly consumed it all, the whole time telling myself to stop... I just don't get it.